tap, tap. is this thing on?
I don't have any life updates...no home renovations, engagement photos, wedding details, fun summer outfits or growing babies.
but I have been on a "journey" of sorts and I wanted to share.
I swear this is not me trying to sell you something or get you to join my squad by paying a "small" fee and sipping on smoothies all day long or get those wrinkles gone.
this is just me, being real, and letting you know how it's going.
back in january, my weight was the 2nd highest it's ever been (only 4lbs off from my highest weight ever). my clothes didn't fit. I never wanted to wear jeans because they were literally painful to wear. and I knew if I didn't do something soon I would not be feeling good when summer rolls around. i've tried it all...shakes, Rx diet pills, regular diet pills, starving myself, etc. but those were always just a quick fix and a few months after I stopped the weight would be back and then some.
so I started watching what I ate. I would write down everything I ate and then once I got in the habit of that I would start pre-planning my meals for the next day. At night, I write down my meals for the next day so I'm prepared and not coming home wondering what I'm going to be eating or going to the drive-thru.
then I decided I probably needed to move more. eating well when I tried to lose weight before was all I ever had to do. I wasn't someone who went to the gym. apparently, when you're 30+ that is not the case. I had seen people posting their steps on social media and thought "hey! I can do that too!" but i didn't realize that 10K steps in a day is a LOT. so I bought a step tracker and started little by little and each day I would go up 500 more steps. I started walking around in my living room, then walking around my apartment complex. then I expanded to walking around the neighborhood, local parks, etc.
please note this is coming from someone who would get home from work at 5:30 and immediately put on pj's. now when I get home from work I put on workout clothes so I'm ready to go on a walk after dinner. I hadn't even bought a pair of tennis shoes in over 10 years and now I have a new pair that I wear more than any other shoes I own. I don't know who I am anymore.
I was also someone who would eat fast food at least 3 times a week. now I don't even eat it 3 times in a month. I don't know who I am anymore.
I was someone who would stay in bed until the very last minute I had to get up to get ready for work and now I'm out of bed by 6:45 and out walking. again...I don't know who I am anymore.
little by little my lifestyle has changed. and little by little the weight is coming off and I feel confident that when summer is in full effect I'll feel good about myself.
I still have cellulite. I still binge eat. I still have a muffin top in certain clothes. I don't run or do any heavy activity...just walk. but the habits I've been able to form I know will last me much longer than a "quick fix." and I get to eat whatever I want, whenever I want it's just in moderation. and if I have an off day I know that tomorrow is a new one and I can start fresh. it's taken over 4 months just to lose 15lbs and I still have another 15lbs to go, but I try not to get discouraged by those "off moments" and just focus on the habits i've created for myself.
if anyone is still reading this...i'm not trying to preach or brag or annoy anyone. trust me...i'm annoyed by people that try to push their sh*t on me or fill up my social media feeds with BS. i'm just here to let people know what works for me and maybe it can work for me. that's all.
